I suck

Yeah...so far not so good.  I haven't done a whole lot on my "journey".  I'm taking a pit stop before I even get on the road.   Eating wise I have reduced portion sizes, cut out almost all sodas, and stopped snacking....mostly.  Sometimes when I go on field trips I see it as a time to eat three of my favorite travel foods: white cheddar popcorn, red or black licorice, and "Good and Plenty".  On the last field trip on Friday I took my own snacks and didn't give in to the temptations. We went to an amusement park and I didn't eat any junk! Yay me!  Ok..for sure sometime this week I'll post my starting stats so we can finally get on the freaking road already!

Introduction to my journey

I decided a while ago it was time to make a change to my weight.  Ok...so I decided last night.  Here's the deal.  I'm a 40-year old mom of 2, twice divorced, three times married, overweight (fine...obese), middle class mom that has always struggled with her weight.  I don't want to lose weight because I want to live longer.  Please...I know plenty of fit, healthy living people who have their share of medical issues.  I want to lose weight because I want to go shopping in "normal" stores, not "specialty" stores.  I want to feel comfortable in clothes and not wonder if my spare tire is sticking out or my ass looks like a teeter toter when I walk.  I want to layer because it looks good, not because I'm trying to hide my body.  I want to be physically more appealing to my husband who loves me unconditionally and has never suggested or offered advice for losing weight unless I ask.  

What started this craziness was changing my birth control.  I used to take "the pill" but I wanted something more permanent.  So I chose to switch to an IUD, Mirena.  I guess because of the change in hormones my body decided it would be fun to retain water and add on extra pounds.  Now I have a large tire around my waist that wants to join the fun every time someone wants to take a picture with me or I want to dress up.  I'm not the type to spend oodles of moola on uncomfortable undergarments that try to hide such things so I guess I have to work on making it disappear.  

I started this blog mostly to keep myself on track.  I refuse to be beholden to the scale.  I'm not buying a doctors scale so I can track every ounce of loss only to go into a screaming rage when I plateau for a day or two.  My plan is to track inches and pounds of loss, but only monthly.  I plan on doubling the amount of exercise I usually do.  Hang on..I'm going to have to rethink that one because 0 multiplied by any number is 0.  Walking, stretching, and exercises I can do at home without the neighbors calling the cops will make up my exercise routine.  

My eating habits will change to a high protein, low carb diet.  Sugar is my vice so I'm going to have to find substitutes for cookies, ice cream, and candy. Dang...this is making me hungry.  

Long story short...I'll be updating this blog with my beginning weight and measurements in the next couple of days.  I hope to also do a daily food log but I think I need to start with baby steps.

So if you aren't offended by an occasional curse word, don't mind indulging in my musings and observations about the world around me, and want to hear about a fat girl trying to become not so fat...join me!